I’m mentally, physically, and emotionally exhausted. Sometimes I want to lay down and never wake up again.
One month becomes 2 weeks becomes every week that these arguments keeps occurring. You keep getting mad over these stupid little things, you think too much because you’re home all the time. I seriously wish you get the fuck up and start working again cause thinking way too much seriously fucks up people. You think too much. Not only are you causing unhappiness to yourself but the rest of the family.
You honestly don’t know anything about any of us. The only thing you ever say about me is that I go out way too much and eventually get married after I graduate. Are you fucken kidding me? You are practically saying I’m a slut. Do you even know how hard I work just to catch up to my friends? Do you know how hard I study to pass? Do you know how hard I try to not let these things effect me? You don’t. You don’t even know how sick I feel right now, I always get headaches and stomaches. But I don’t tell you because you couldn’t even care less. Never trusted anyone, always think you’re correct, and think you know everything and everyone. All you care about is gaining benefits you don’t even give two fuck about how others feel.
Sometimes I wish I was on my own, living by myself. I think I’d feel much better because I don’t have to care about anyone nor do I have to worry how another treats me. I don’t know if I can last one more year of high school living here. I guess even if I have to take a loan I’m leaving to a college that will accept me. I can’t handle this mental and emotional stress any longer. I’ve kept it in long enough, if I keep it even longer I might snap and go crazy.I think this family is very broken. There’s something wrong with this fucken family. Out of anger you torn all the family pictures down. Because you couldn’t think outside the box you said things I can never imagine anyone saying. The only person who plays the role of family the best is my mom. And the person who plays the role the worst is you father. How unfortunate of me to have a fatherfucker like you. I might have committed way too much sins in my pass life to have this unfortunate life. Maybe I deserve such a suffering life.